This entry is gonna be long and you (other than vrm) are not gonna have any idea about this post. skip it if you wish.

Dear VRM,
So insane the past week has been. Things did not go exactly as planned. So tiring after all the endless loopholes that needed to be resolved. No one could keep up. I resigned myself to rest too. took the time to dwell over all that has happened and how to prevent things from going out of hand again.

we've been through ups & downs together. Going through what seemed most impossible to clear. bearing all those jealousy form some out there, getting into trouble for making too much of noise, having fun together, doing all the shit with one another, laughing screaming jumping and even crying with one another. most importantly, being there for each other always. remember, what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger.

It seems so easy yet so difficult
Chances are so near yet so far
So little yet so much has happened
So sure yet so unsure
So firm yet so helpless
This agony is pulling me apart,
Letting me fall from where I once stood.
Looking up is so easy yet so difficult.
The confusion of the world is hard.

Whether its difficult or not, I am more than determined to cross all odds and hurdles - I wont let jealousy get in the way even if I have to be the one who curb all misunderstandings by giving in. I wont let unhappiness be brought onto any one even if it means put my ego and shame down. why should there be any misunderstandings? why should there be anger? why should there be sadness? you mean putting on a facade is what we would want to leave with? Im not saying we are living with it, but I would dread the day that we have to succumb to all these BUT NO WAY, NO IM NOT LETTING THAT HAPPEN. VRM YOU HEAR ME? YOU GUYS MEAN ALOT TO ME, SCREW THOSE WHO TRY TO TEAR US APART.

Moving on, Im leaving for Malaysia at 6pm this evening and I am going to miss all of you! though its only for 4 days, but goodness its gonna be long. Nonetheless, I am getting all of you something :)

Vivek -
Bestfriend, I know you are name obsessed. I'll hunt (whatever it takes) to get you something up to your so stylish taste :) and you like colours like black and white. yes yes, I remember. Dont pretend by the time you reach this line you're already smiling to yourself right :DD But then... one question. what do you not have with your name on it? Bracelet, keychain, handphone chain, necklace. all with your name on it. OH WAIT. I GET IT. I KNOW I KNOW. FREAKKKK. okay you wait for your surprise. love you THIS MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. <3

Reshmi -
Honey, I know you love things which are purple. I'll hunt (whatever it takes) to get you something nice in purple. And you like things which are pretty and shimmery, attention grabbing things. Haha. yes reshmi enough stop smiling now :) love you tons <3

Minyi -
Girlfriend, your turn :) YOU LOVE THINGS WITH HEART SHAPE. hahaha. and also cute things ( i know your taste la!) and I will hunt (whatever it takes) to get you something to satisfy that liking. Yes angminyi, I know you're doing your usual thing of laughing in front of the laptop. tsktsk, enough. I LOVE YOUUUUU.

okay, im done :)

Before I end of,



With the three of you around
Happiness, I found
Love joy hope care
was what we all learnt to give and share
if any one of you happen to be down
see the smiles on either one of our faces and dont you dare frown
Whatever may come
I promise, I'll do whatever it takes
its you guys i'll never forsake.
Smile like that, always.


The coffin is coming out on the 30th. On ah? :) vivek that'll be the day you'll be like freeeeeee. so okay good! see ya'll when im back! LOVELOVELOVE